Phewww! Relieved..

Thank God I didnt give up! thank you my soul for holding back! thank you for not letting in to all those temptations and worldly addictions! People are so mean! they just try to tear apart souls which are meant for eachother.. they need to find their own soul mates rather than engaging others and breaking some couples jsut to get what they desire... this might not make any sense to people reading this.. but I wanted to right and speak my heart out.. I have won.. i have conquered the temptation.. and this is all what i needed to prove myself.. I hope i have backed the right option! Allah help em out! please stay with me in these trying times! You are always there to solve my problems and i know this time too, You will exceed my limited expectations... Thanks for everything Allah!

Dreams and Reality

So last night, I was telling my friend that i blog. I was fascinated when she told me that she writes poems every now and then. I said i just write this blog to give a vent to my feelings which i can not share with anyone, not even someone close to me. Anyways, i asked her to give me an idea for writing a new blogpost. She was kind enough to give a topic to me right away- dreams and reality. I surely am pretty interested in writing about it. Well, what  can i say? Dreams are very important .. without dreams i dont think anyone can achieve a high pedestal in their life. Some people dream to turn it into a reality and some just dream to find an escape from the real world. In both cases, dreams play an important role in elating their hopes in some way. Where some people would see those who try to find an escape from reality through dreams in a scathingly criticizing manner, i would say dreams are some times playing a role of drug to their lives. The reality has become so harsh and thorny for them that instead of keeping suicide as an available option, they try to indulge in a world where the things are moving on their fingertips. Dreams become a life saving option for them and they cling to it as long as they are  alive and undisturbed by any worldly affairs. Reality is not always harsh but what you make of it. The world outside treats you the way you want it to treat you. This was a reality check given to me by one of my friends, well i agree to it. Never over or even under estimate yourself. Both are terrible extremes and will harm you in someway or the other. I dont know where this particular piece of writing is taking me. I dont really think hard before writing here. Hey its my blog page after all! lol..
I, on the other hand would like to commend the efforts people take to achieve their dreams. Those who strive hard and work towards a better goal are the ones who have actually lived this life. No wonder their names are written in golden letters and people recall their names with great relish and joy. I wish i could do something that people could remember me in their good books. anyways i would like to take a rain check on this topic now, i need to think and re-think. I havnt done justice to this topic yet.  

Creating Confusions

This bloody laptop is a pain! all that i had written here so far just vanished with a single click.. argh!!
So i have taken up the task of writing again some of the most boring stuff you can ever read. lol. did i just underrate my work by myself? this is pure blasphemy. so here I present you a classic piece of writing never penned down in the history of writingdom. :D anyways i will continue the same theme that i was discussing in my last blog; yes i know, its been a long time since i touched this very sweet blog of my own but hey! i did get back to it, it is about Harry Potter. I must admit, this book has clearly kept me under its spell the moment i finished it off. I was completely going gaga for it for a whole week, discussing every scene and every character with a dear harry potter fan friend of mine, He was generous enough to listen to my new found love for this series as he had been quite familiar with it quite a long time ago. Nevertheless, its better late than never.
Discussing books, I just recall a recent news i read regarding our very own shoaib akhtar penning down his own autobiography. These words were engraved in my mind more because of the whole controversy and hullabullo it has created in the media world. I am waiting for that book to publish (if it crossed this stage with safety) and get my hand on it so I can discover what lies therein that created such a fascination for every news channel to report it out in capital captions. Till that time, me signing out from here and hope to return soon with a new scoop of new experience in my life.

Potter Mania!

Boredom is really taking on my nerves these days, I mean seriously! I know there are thousands of things that I can take interest in and start them as a hobby to kill time but I don't have the desire to start any of it. That reminds me I, finally out of some strange mind, have taken up the task of reading Harry Potter. It is due to the favor of my 10 year old cousin who left his book at my place and then my mind started craving to read and discover what lies there that attracts millions of readers towards it. I am just on the second chapter right now and by far, to tell the truth, it certainly has astonished and fascinated me with its almost perfect writing style and characterization. I hope it keeps me engaged like this till the end.

So stupid or Not so Selfish?

Am I the only most dumbest person alive on this world? there is a whole context related to this question I just asked. I have quit my job that I was doing as a content writer, I had informed my content head around one week prior to leaving it so that he can find a replacement and is not landed in hot waters cause of me. As per the agreement (mind you, there is no written agreement, we just work by the word of mouth) I decided all the work that was assigned to me. The problem is that I have not received my pay yet. Its been 15 days ahead of the time I should have received my pay. and God knows when he is going to transfer it to my account,. My mum and my aunt kept telling me that ask him to transfer the pay first and then you will submit him the rest of the work, but it just sounded extremely odd and silly since I had been working with him for the past 6 months and I sorta knew he would not run away with the money. Was I the one who trusted him blindly and did not pay attention to my elder's advice? or should I have some patience and let some time pass and see whether he gives it to me or not. By the way, I have also emailed him today that I need to know about my pay. I hope he replies back, and its a positive one. -__- please God!! prove all my inhibitions wrong!!

I just HATEEE it when people around me ignore me!! although it shouldn't be something so great and epic to bother about but I don't know why I am so affected by it! "I hate it" is definitely an understatement for defining how I feel when I am going through that disgusting feeling. I try and try and try to do the same with all those people who treat me like dirt and talk to me when ever they are in a mood of doing that. But all in vain. People!! start realizing that I am a human too! I am also blessed with a heart which is trampled every time you walk away from me! Pretend as if I was never there in your life!
God! give me strength and courage to bear this or make me extremely thick-skinned or I will die! You are the only one Who is always there with me..through thick and thins, through shallows and abysses of alienation and depression.

Confession

so yes, I have to confess, I visit this page whenever I feel extremely bored or I am just dwindling my thumbs and possibly have nothing else to do than write. I have loads of work to do..but hey its my weekend today and I have taken a pledge to myself that no matter what happens, (even at the cost of just staring blank at this silly screen) I will not start my work. oh, I have some good news to share, India just lost the match to South Africa..yayyy..you ask why I am happy since I dont belong to South Africa? All my life I have supported just two teams during cricket world cup matches..One is Pakistan, and any other team playing against India..hehehe..yeah I know that is sheer prejudice and snobbish of me but I don't care.. the players of Indian team are just plain proud and boisterous. They just have no sense of sportsmanship and every time I saw them taking a wicket of the opponent team, they were uttering gibberish and abusive words to celebrate their victory. pretty nonsensical. so a Victory is a victory! I am extremely happy how Peterson maintained his calm and batted all the way to reach a winning score. Keep playing like that Pals, but not against Pakistan. Go Pakistan Go..my heart still belongs to you.

Yay..So finally I am back on my page again and writing about something thats keeps bugging me these days. Why does each and every Tom, Dick and Harry has to discuss about religion on Tv and daily life. I know it is very thoughtful of people who come all the way to a studio to bless our souls with the information they have but what about the people who you meet every day? is religion just a tool to be boasted of in public? One of my friends, starts a chat like this: Ali: "hey check out that chick, shes so hot", Me(jokingly):"gosh..raise your standard dude..shes not your type.." Ali:"oh comon..larki tau hai na..I am happy with that..atleast shes serving as a great eye candy to me :D",Me"oh never mind..."..then we both hear Azaan in the background..Ali:"oh its prayer time, I should really hurry up..you should offer ur prayers too..this is obligatory for a Muslim, you are not going to be forgiven for showing so much ignorance towards religion.." Me:"Ali!! Look!! what a hot chick!!" He turns his head..no chick found..silence...

Piled up with Work

The moment I think of writing something for my very own blog page, I am entangled in some work. These days, I am busy watching cricket matches as well so I have all my prayers for Pakistan. I really hope that they win the world cup this time. Most of us have lost hope in our team because of the mishaps and bad incidents happened in the past to our players. Some of them are definitely to be blamed for putting a bruise on the prestige of our country but nonetheless I am cheering for them again, keeping my fingers crossed so that something good happens. I hope they do not let us down this time, even if they don't win, they lose with some dignity in their hands keeping their heads high.

Some Thoughts

I had planned to start my blog on my birthday but somehow or the other I was unable to do so. Nevertheless, this would not stop my desire to keep writing, not for anyone else but for myself. I will keep saying or utilizing the ink of my pen just to make myself happy. This keeps me reminded of the past and all those years I have spent as a student of Literature. I don’t want to put to waste my knowledge or techniques that were being taught at the department. I am sure no one is interested in reading what I have to say about myself and my silly ramblings holds no value for others, but that does not hamper my passion to put my brain to some work and that is for my own betterment. I have never had the confidence to write for the public but a few days back I had an opportunity to write for a company and that has infused in me some great self-reliability and confidence on my art. Even if I got stuck during the process of writing, I was able to help myself out of that situation with some help from my Content Head. This is how I have learnt to improve, proceed and gain strong hold of my confidence. I would surely like to improve my vocabulary as one cannot add up words to their dictionary by sitting and thinking in one’s mind and not produce it on a paper. That reminds me of the horrible virus that has taken over the whole publication markets these days. The value of hard copy material has seriously received a blow with the advancement of internet libraries and search engines. People tend to use this instructional material, which is the computer, in every walk of their lives. I wonder if there’ll be a time when people would have forgotten about how to write when provided with a pen and paper. Most importantly, and for the reason I am raising this issue here, is the lack of hard copy dictionary usage. Students find it really difficult to search for a word in a dictionary as they go to dictionary.com and voila! the words with their meanings, synonyms and antonyms are there in front of them within seconds. Digital dictionaries also play an imperative role in this great decline of the “book dictionary culture”. It serves as an accomplice in the conspiracy against the book-form dictionary and thus its decline has taken its toll now-a-days. This sums up the first ever blog post I wanted to write for my very own page. I will try to keep my page updated with some more interesting stuff that goes around in my life.