I just HATEEE it when people around me ignore me!! although it shouldn't be something so great and epic to bother about but I don't know why I am so affected by it! "I hate it" is definitely an understatement for defining how I feel when I am going through that disgusting feeling. I try and try and try to do the same with all those people who treat me like dirt and talk to me when ever they are in a mood of doing that. But all in vain. People!! start realizing that I am a human too! I am also blessed with a heart which is trampled every time you walk away from me! Pretend as if I was never there in your life!
God! give me strength and courage to bear this or make me extremely thick-skinned or I will die! You are the only one Who is always there with me..through thick and thins, through shallows and abysses of alienation and depression.

Confession

so yes, I have to confess, I visit this page whenever I feel extremely bored or I am just dwindling my thumbs and possibly have nothing else to do than write. I have loads of work to do..but hey its my weekend today and I have taken a pledge to myself that no matter what happens, (even at the cost of just staring blank at this silly screen) I will not start my work. oh, I have some good news to share, India just lost the match to South Africa..yayyy..you ask why I am happy since I dont belong to South Africa? All my life I have supported just two teams during cricket world cup matches..One is Pakistan, and any other team playing against India..hehehe..yeah I know that is sheer prejudice and snobbish of me but I don't care.. the players of Indian team are just plain proud and boisterous. They just have no sense of sportsmanship and every time I saw them taking a wicket of the opponent team, they were uttering gibberish and abusive words to celebrate their victory. pretty nonsensical. so a Victory is a victory! I am extremely happy how Peterson maintained his calm and batted all the way to reach a winning score. Keep playing like that Pals, but not against Pakistan. Go Pakistan Go..my heart still belongs to you.

Yay..So finally I am back on my page again and writing about something thats keeps bugging me these days. Why does each and every Tom, Dick and Harry has to discuss about religion on Tv and daily life. I know it is very thoughtful of people who come all the way to a studio to bless our souls with the information they have but what about the people who you meet every day? is religion just a tool to be boasted of in public? One of my friends, starts a chat like this: Ali: "hey check out that chick, shes so hot", Me(jokingly):"gosh..raise your standard dude..shes not your type.." Ali:"oh comon..larki tau hai na..I am happy with that..atleast shes serving as a great eye candy to me :D",Me"oh never mind..."..then we both hear Azaan in the background..Ali:"oh its prayer time, I should really hurry up..you should offer ur prayers too..this is obligatory for a Muslim, you are not going to be forgiven for showing so much ignorance towards religion.." Me:"Ali!! Look!! what a hot chick!!" He turns his head..no chick found..silence...