Lolwut?

Ive given up on my habit of ranting here. its a sad fact I guess. but I hate that the letter after a fullstop doesnt capitalize itself here. just like this 'j' of 'just' didnt capitalize. so anyways... I still have a really really bad habit of excessive use of articles in my sentences. one of my teachers pointed this out when I was in my second year that I need to cut down on the dosage of articles use in my sentences. SHIT. i just recalled he hated the use of 'medical jargon' in my sentences too. I just used 'dosage' HAHAHA. I cant believe it. that was so not intentional. it just... happened. this is funny. do you guys ever feel like an exact same feeling or scene from your past life gets played in the same mode, same place and exact same manner in your present life? I feel that so much. I sometimes spend a whole day recalling where did I hear this before by this exact same person. feels so weird.

and you thought I had decided not to rant here. hehehe. you fools.

wow. mind blown.

All of me loves all of you. love your curves and all your edges. all your perfect imperfections.

how is this a love song? this is seriously messed up. At first he's all lovey dovey f  ryou but in the very second line, he has the nerve to call you, his very own precious cuddly bae, FAT (curves and edges??) . Like dudeee stahp. are you kidding me? how can you just call me fat after telling me you love me? is this how you treat your lover? okay if I ignore this for being this person's first mistake (which Im sure was deliberate), he then goes on to calling you Perfect and Imperfect at the same time. what is this confusing shit? whose emotion is he trying to toy with, eh? after being 'oh Im so in love with you', he's like 'wait you are perfect but you are not PERFECT perfect, okay?'.  sheesh. This is so not cool. I protest.

The Fault In Us All

They say you have to be in someone's shoes to feel their agony. I say you have to love them enough to feel that same pain. I may be wrong but death is a feeling that almost all of us are somehow familiarized with. Whether by losing a family member or a relative, we all come to know the varying levels of pain and fear that comes with the inevitable stage of death.

I read 'The Fault in Our Stars' a few weeks back and had been gathering up my feels to write a review on it. I took alot (when I say alot it means ALOT cause I like to think Im a fast reader) of time in finishing that novel partly because I didnt want to continue. you ask why? I'll tell you. I have a hard time going through reading stuff that is painfully depressing. Sorry to spoil your fun but yes, the story will pierce through your heart like a bullet but at the same time give you a roller coaster ride of humor and reality of life and death through the characters. The strong and vivid imagery and symbols of the novel allow you to create a picture in mind and feel the emotions depicted in them. you'll say every novel tries to do that. Every novel tries to depict human emotions and evoke a certain sympathy for the characters. This one doesnt.
Characters do not, rather never ask for your sympathy. They are always brave and jovial (atleast on the outside) about their illness. They're always joking around as if its nothing to be afflicted by a dangerous disease called Cancer. This cantankerous tumor doesnt budge the liveliness that the characters possess.

Hazel Grace, the main lead and the only heroine of the novel, is a sixteen year old battling with cancer. She carries an oxygen tank around with her. wherever she goes, she has to drag it with her. She keeps thinking she is a problem child for her mum and is a symbol of ambiguous feelings of wanting to live and wanting to die at the same time. She becomes alive with the powerful feeling called love. The person who becomes the most important person in her life to share her exact feelings of being ill is Augustus Waters. Waters is also a teenager with only one leg having lost the other one in his battle with cancer. He is described to be a handsomely rugged guy with a voice that can call upon heavens and make it rain. Waters and Grace develop a strong chemistry with each other and spend their time together to find out how much familiarity they have in them. Not only the illness connects them but also their likes and dislikes, their feelings about certain things in life and their approach to battle cancer.

The novel was a sweet and sour ride of what it's like to be a person afflicted with a horrendous disease and how difficult it is to be a parent of such children. The parts where the writer discussed the helplessness of Hazel and her parents brought tears to my eyes. A person who has gone through this or a person who has seen a loved one suffer needs a lot of courage to go through the same pain again while reading this. At the same time, people who know about the pain of cancer and its patients can relate to the book with an alacrity that might be missing in other people. The writer has anyhow managed to skillfully arouse our emotions and love for the characters and you feel like doing something for humanity. To arouse that feeling is, I guess, an achievement in itself.
PS: waiting desperately for its movie to hit the theaters.
PPS: the couple in the movie is so cute I might cry again.

Missing Mode On

Going to miss all my tweeps. with whom I have laughed. with whom Ive fought and argued over petty things. They were the reason I stayed, They were the reason I came back. They always make me smile even if they know Im being a snorty little hag.
Going to miss my football tweeps. All those with whom Ive argued and fought like a maniac and yelled (Capslocked) my heart out that Barcelona and Messi are awesome and unbeatable. haha. I need to put all that behind now. those are memories though, lovely memories.
Going to specially miss my #TeamJawniz and all those special ones who cared to tell me that my tweets are awesome. that my avi was good or bad or when I was 'High' and should have gone to sleep. haha. My #TeamJawniz is awesome. J, AF, AH, SJ, H, ND, ZH, HF and Groovy. these people are awesome. I wish I could wrap them in a parcel and keep them with me forever.

Life Is Changin' Yo!

Life is going to change. After a Month I'd have different relationships, different responsibilities and different people to take care of. They would be like family.
Family reminds me of my sis who is abroad and cant come to Pakistan to attend my Nikkah. Its killing me. she misses it too. I miss her. We dont say anything but I hate it. Who misses the Nikkah of their siblings? Allah, please help us out. I know you do everything for a reason but If she can come I'd be really thankful to You. if not, I'd still be thankful cuz Your Decisions are Great.
Im freaking out. I literally am. I have to keep my mind focused on trivial stuff to keep myself happy. I am happy but the stress is part and parcel of the relationship I am going to be in after a month. May Allah bless Me and my family. Always.

Blogpost on Umera Ahmed

CHARM OF UMERA AHMED’S DRAMAS

The name “Umera Ahmed” needs no introduction since it has created a place of its own among the giants of Urdu prose. Drama channels provided a platform to writers like Umera Ahmed to display their work and the moment people watched her first drama, they were spell-bound. Meri  Zaat  Zarra-e-Benishan, Doraha, Maat, Daam, Durr e Shehwar, Shehre Zaat and the most recent serial Zindagi Gulzar Hai have taken the level of Urdu dramas to a zenith.

The themes of her dramas revolve around family, relationships, religion, the society and its hypocrisy. She owns a deep insight into the psychology of humans and thus she pens down all the intricacies that go in the mind of a man, woman or even a teenager. It is a wonder as to how she can depict the story from a man’s perspective as well as a woman’s with sheer brilliance and alacrity. Her characters in the dramas, specially the woman, acquire a special place in the dramas and in the hearts of her audience. She makes people fall in love, hate and jealousy with the characters and puts to test our various human emotions for them.

Urdu language was losing its charm when Pakistani channels started broadcasting Indian dramas and displayed a dire need of Pakistani content. Umera Ahmed came to the rescue of Pakistani culture and content with her novels and her beautiful stories and got people addicted to Pakistani media. Her art knows no bounds when it comes to teaching society moral values and breaking all sorts of stereotypes regarding men and women. Her dramas create a whole new world of fiction, imagination and at the same time, make us believe that it is all real. She has a charm to create stories that last in the mind of audience for a long time. 

(The page to which I submitted this article selected some other article which had to my surprise a terrible sentence structure and grammatical errors. anyways. here's my take on the legendary Umera Jee.) 

Day 5 (Darn it) of Deactivation

Why do people act like smart asses? ALL THE FRIGGIN TIME. Pakistanis are soooo addicted to being smart asses that they cant answer straight. They think their level of wit and sarcasm is so good that whatever shit they are going to utter is going to be so delightfully funny that anybody who wouldnt agree with them would be ostracized as dumb. No. thats not how this world works. maybe it does. some special sort of douchepickles are present everywhere. Some people running those Facebook pages like Memeabad are some examples. Khair...
I forgot to write my blogpost yesterday. rather, I was so lost in watching Breaking Bad that I lost the track of time and didnt recall to open my blog page. Regarding Breaking bad, this is one hell of a series. Once I am done watching this, imma write a whole blogpost regarding it. It deserves it. the characters, the plot, the themes and every other thing is well synchronized and makes it even more awesome. Im trying to download the 3rd season of Breaking Bad now. I hope it downloads already so I can continue with the adventure.